Life stays just the same

Everytime I come back from Poland I'm left with a mixed feelings. Sadness, of course, but most of all relief. I feel truly sorry for those who have to struggle with the life which I so selfishly abandoned. Who would think that after few years I'll start feeling like I don't belong there anymore. This time I had to stay for 16 days and I was going crazy! 10 days is my limit, I'll better remember it for the future.

Don't understand me wrong, it's a beautiful and rather well educated country.
Just maybe not for me anymore.
I lost my bonds.

I solemnly swear I'm up to no good.